Monday, December 19, 2005
im Lost...ive been thinking about this for a few days...i have a blog..but what am i suppose to blog about??blog about myself?there isnt much to say about myself..blog on my daily routine?i dun do much stuff plus that would be boring to the others...blog about my thoughts?as if i thought of anything..blog about my interest?wats so interesting about my interest..blog bout my feelings?i wonder whats my feelings rite now..can you see??im just so lost..lost of directions..where am i heading?how do i get there?what do i do there?when can i reach there?why do i need to be there?its all questions in my life..i tried to find the answers for the past 19 years..but i couldnt find any..each time i thought i found it..but awhile after that i doubt if thats the answer..many many things happen through this 19 years..theres happy and sad moments and not forgetting suffering moments..but who can i share it with?my dad?he wont have time for me..my mum?sometimes but not all the time..my sista?she dun seems to be interested about my stuff..my friends?it works for awhike but not always because they have their own life..my boyfriend?too bad i don have any..who else?i cant think of anyone that i can be trusted to share with me..life is just so complicated..i may get something that the others want but i may not get something that the others dont want..why cant it be more fair and square?everyone gets the same thing..everything equal..then sure it would be world peace..'THERE ISNT ANY FREE LUNCH IN THIS WORLD'..how true is that..in some situation it maybe very true..philosophycally its applicable for all types of situation..but practically there are times where u think that u might wanna give out a free lunch..at this time..friends would say 'thats so generous of you' but true friends will say' thats so stupid of you'..which is right and which is wrong??u became confused!!what we think..what we understand and what we do are totally different..it all depends on your attitude..my lecturer used to say that we must have a right attitude..but what type of attitude is accepted by everyone in this world..i wonder..i guess i will keep on wondering..till then..p.s>>Juan!!Happy 19th Birthday!!
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